2. Age: 21
3. A) Have you read all of the Harry Potter books that are out currently? Of course.
B) How many are there (excluding the two books done for charity)? Seven, clearly. Who said otherwise...? Good lord...
C)Which one was your favourite? Explain. Oh ho ho, well, that's a bit of a toughie, isn't it? Hmm, well, I do love the fifth book for a million and one reasons, but what Harry Potter fan wouldn't? First and foremost, the amount of information that is revealed is just heavenly. I love how the school ends up rebelling against the TOAD, I love hearing about the prophecy (which, like any good prophecy is only worth its while if it is acted upon by those who believe in it), I love learning more about Snape's clouded past (the poor man was so abused...just makes him sexier... XD), the introduction of Luna Lovegood who is just delightfully go-with-the-flow and out there (and her fashion sense in three words: roaring lion hat)... There's so much. I also think that it is absolutely BRILLIANT how Fred and George tell Umbridge to stick it where the sun don't shine. (A swamp in the middle of Hogwarts: just what you need when leaving any institution run by a madwoman with a penchant for torturing young wizarding/witching minds.) Oh, Dumbledore's Army is simply fabulous, by the way. Any after school activity that is used to bring down the system and stick it to the man has my vote. As long as you don't get caught, that is... Hee hee. There are so many wonderful points, but at the same time there are so many furiating things. For example, Fudge = Idiot with a capital I, Bellatrix = evilly delicious (before that skank-whore kills my darling Sirius Black!!!), and Cho's ridiculous rebounding with Harry. I mean, that stupid git just leads him on to get information on her dead-ex! Get a therapist, woman! Harry won't bring him back from the dead by reliving his brutal murder by Voldemort! Oh, snap! I went there!
Anyway, I love the 5th book, teenage angst and all. Oh, and Dumbledore totally owning Tom Riddle's emo butt = Priceless.
4. A)If you attended Hogwarts, what would be your favourite subject? Divination
B) Why? To begin with, let me allow a small disclaimer: the class itself is excellent. Trelawney teaching the class makes me want to cry a little inside. I am already very knowledgeable in the areas of astrology, tarot, and rune reading. (No, not the practical applications, my dears, the guide-for-living-one's-life application.) I would just LOVE to study under Firenze, however. (Another reason why book 5 is glorious. A centaur teaching divination and then his clan goes and beats the snot out of Umbridge! Oh, heaven!) I find that since all divination is simply speculation, it is not a matter of seeing the future as a concrete thing, but as one of many possibilities that could occur and as a guide on how to better pave the road that one would wish to walk later. It's an excellent way to improve your own behavior and provides insight into yourself so that you may better understand your past, present, and possible future.
5. If you could store one memory in a Pensieve, what would it be? Explain. If I were to sit down and think about putting one memory into a Pensieve I would be there a while. A long while. There are so many memories that I cling to like precious jewels, whether they be good or sad. I have had life changing experiences that would qualify and I have had simply delightful excursions that would make for lovely playback. My life, for all its wretchedness and pain, has been terribly beautiful and joyful. After all, how would one know what heat was with cold or light without dark? I think all moments, good and bad, are noteworthy...however, I digress. I suppose that in the end I would choose one of my most mortifying times in my life as it was the time when I learned more about myself in a couple of weeks than I have throughout this lifetime. When I was just 13 years old my life was an emotional wreck, like most prepubescent girls my age, but perhaps slightly worse. My father, an avid alcoholic and abusive fool, was (and still does to this day) making my life a living hell, I was feeling intense bouts of unprovoked anger and hostility, depression, hyper activity, and feelings of increased self worth (like I was somehow better than everyone else). Now, I don't mean that these feelings happened in one month or one week, even. No no, this was a daily occurance that was so intense that I would sometimes go home and just scream and cry for hours. It's a shock my friends stood by me for so long... I would manipulate them into fighting one another so I could join in just to scream at someone, I wouldn't let my best friend ever hold down a boyfriend out of nothing other than pure selfishness and jealousy, and I was somewhat self-abusive. (Trust me, you don't need the details on that...) In any case, eventually these daily cycles, along with the awful things going on at home, drove me to a breaking point and I was shipped off in an ambulance to a psychiatric ward for 3 weeks. It was there that I had explained to me that my feelings and behavior was not normal, and that in fact I had an illness called manic-depressive (or bi-polar) disorder along with auditory hallucinations. (Oh, and as a side note: I just HATE how society has practically made having bi-polar disorder an in-vogue thing. It's just ridiculous! Having mood swings doesn't make you bi-polar. Back to the topic now... ^^;;) During that time I was heavily medicated and went through a ton of therapy. However, the most amazing thing that came out of that entire experience was when one of the nurses who would come in my room every morning to take my vitals and draw my blood shared with me a prayer I had never heard of before. It was called "The Serenity Prayer" and it goes a little something like this: God, grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. That short three-line prayer made all the difference in the world. It gave me my new philosophy in life that no matter what, the Universe is taking care of everything and it will go on with or without you and that there is no better thing than to work with Nature rather than against Her. At that time and place, I broke down and cried. I just sobbed like a newborn child with my face pressed against the nurse's brightly colored shirt, shaking and hiccuping all the while. My whole life was simplified for me right then and there and I knew that I was being taken care of. I knew that I couldn't change my father's drinking, that I could change how I reacted to things, and that I could help myself become a healthier person with or without him. Everything made a 180 there and since that time I have never truly lost my sight or despaired (at least not for long) when things got dark. I don't know if you could call me and optimist or what, but I know that nothing bad ever happens without something good set up to come right around the bend. So, to conclude, I would say that having that short 5 - 10 minute revelation would be the best memory to leave behind. Who knows? Perhaps someone else would benefit from it and also find hope and solace in knowing that we are not alone and that the darkest hour is always just before dawn.
6. If you were to face a boggart, what do you think it would it turn into? Explain why you think this. I know this is going to sound an awful lot like our favorite Weasley matron, but it still holds true: seeing all of my loved ones dead, dying, or in pain. I just can't stand it and it frightens me so badly... I know after reading my previous answer to question 5 you may have thought that I would have listed my abusive father, but you see, I don't so much fear him as I pity and loathe him. He makes me angry, sad, furious, upset...the whole nine yards. However I do not fear him. I have stood up to him before, even if only to be knocked down time and time again, but I have not feared his abuse. I have feared that I would see my loved ones in great agony and/or dead and therefore sworn to do my best to protect their livelihood, safety, and happiness at all costs. There is nothing I won't do for a loved one and if there ended up being nothing that could be done, I just don't know how'd I'd handle it. It's a terribly frightening aspect and I'd rather not dwell on it for too long.
7. What do you think you would you see in the Mirror of Erised? Y'know, for as much as I like myself as I am now, things can always been improved. *laughs* However, that is not what the mirror shows, so I'll be frank. It would probably show me either incredibly rich with a fat kitty and much skinnier than I am now or me in a real pagan temple somewhere in a lovely, secluded area as its high priestess. Both would be lovely, and I wouldn't mind having either, but I know that both paths can't really intersect. There is a choice between the extreme materialism or the high spiritualism. Since I strive for balance in my life, it might be difficult to see either really.
Alright, strike that. In the end I would have to choose the life of a priestess. I would love to be surrounded by other priests and priestesses and endless books piled one on top of the other in a gorgeous white temple dedicated to the old gods/goddesses. To be able to daily draw myself closer to the Great Spirit and to find ways to help and teach others would be blissful. There's just something wonderful about being able to help another person learn more about themselves, life, and how to further enrich both. There is nothing greater or more noble than to serve others.
8. Would you have put your name in the Goblet of Fire? Explain your reasoning. Ha ha ha ha...NO. I'm sorry, but I have never been a competitive person and never will be. That and I'm terribly weak physically and a bit of a wimp. As much as I enjoy a good intellectual challenge, I just can't really see myself running for my life simply to prove that I'm stronger, better, or faster than anyone else. It's just a waste of time so other people can be amused by a few students risking life and limb to show how superior they are. Now, I do believe that I would thoroughly enjoy meeting a sphinx or merpeople under much more controlled, albeit, safe circumstances, but not under the pretense that if I don't complete a challenge within a certain time limit something awful would happen. *shivers* Noooo thank you!
9. A)Would you use an Unforgiveable Curse, and if so, under what circumstances would you use an Unforgivable Curse?Unfortunately, I feel compelled to be completely honest, so...yes. If someone I cared about was in danger or was threatened by another person I would use the imperious curse to make sure that the threat was eliminated and that my loved ones were safe from harm.
B)Why?At running the risk of sounding repetitive, I would do almost anything to keep my loved ones from harm. I am ridiculously protective and motherly (your typical cancerian from the zodiac). Let's just make sure ya'll don't get that confused with reckless. I don't have it in my heart to take another life; I just couldn't split my soul like that. It would be an unerasable mark on my being that I just couldn't bear. However, manipulation, maybe an itsy bitty bit of torture, or some well placed pressure on some weak points on the human body...why sure. If it gets the job done... Allow me to share a little bit more of myself with you, my darlings. I am a survivor when it comes down to it. I am not physically strong, terribly agile, or limber in any sense but I'll be damned if I won't use every single resource that I have available to me to make it through any dangerous situation I come up against. That same rule applies to when I am looking after others. End of story.
10. What house do you think you would be wrong to be put in, and why? Goodness gracious, you sure do love to pose all the hard questions, don't you? Heh. Well, I really can see myself in at least three of the houses and at least a little bit of the fourth, but I can be very indecisive. (Hence, I came here to have someone tell me what I am!) To get to the point, I guess I would find it hard to see myself in Gryffindor. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a coward, but I am also no real hero. As I had stated earlier, I am essentially a survivor and will do what is necessary but I will not go looking for trouble or put myself in situations I don't think I can get out of. If there is a time when I think that shear will and/or ingenuity won't cut it I will briefly withdraw to come up with a game plan (if time will allow) and then reenter. I play to win, not to go out with a bang and leave empty handed. What good am I to anyone dead?
11. Put the following words in order of importance to you: Adventurous, Ardent, Acute, Crafty, Benevolent, Accommodating, Burlesque, Drive. Please explain your top three and the one you place last. Benevolent, Crafty, Accommodating, Ardent, Acute, Drive, Adventurous, Burlesque.
Benevolent - It is of the highest importance that one remember that you get back what you give to the Universe and that to share kindness is to receive it tenfold. To love, to be good, and to show compassion are large parts of what it means to be a worthwhile human being. In fact, one of the greatest lessons in the Harry Potter books is that love is the strongest, most wonderful power known to man. What would Harry have been without the love of his parents, the watchful eye and kindness of Dumbledore, and the loving support of his friends? In fact, even Dumbledore stresses over and over the never-ending power of love's ability to overcome all obstacles and conquer all. No one can tell me that there is anything better than benevolence and love.
Crafty - Now, if it is important to be benevolent, then it is secondly as important to have the ability to sort through situations and to have the mental power to back up your actions in life. I value having a sharp mind and being able to reason. After all, with kindly applied reasoning, you can talk down most people from frustrating situations (like people constantly running themselves into a metaphorical brick wall) or find a way to manipulation a scenario to suit your purposes. There is no substitute for knowledge, and there is most certainly no substitute for being able to apply that knowledge wisely to every situation you may come up against.
Accommodating - Third most important is to be accommodating, or adaptable, to life. I do not mean that you should be a doormat and acquiesce to everyone's whims just for the sake of not rocking the boat. No no, what I mean is that you have to have some amount of flexibility in order to deal with the millions of changes that life with inevitably throw at you. If you are so rigid and unchanging, or unaccommodating, to new things that arrive in your life, whether they be good or bad, you won't survive for very long. You also do have to have the ability to accommodate the wishes of other people at times to get what you would like in return. Compromise. Reciprocation. Communication. These are all important to surviving with others.
Burlesque - I feel no need to focus on my sexuality to the point of making it a major part of my life. Sexuality and attractiveness come naturally to those who have good self-esteem, confidence, and a good soul. It's really not something that needs to be worked on or zeroed in on. People will find you to be sexy if you are simply yourself, darlings.
12. What single quality do you feel goes the furthest in defining who you are? Explain why. Crazy. Now, before you jump to conclusions, allow me to explain. You see, not only am I what you might consider clinically insane (bi-polar disorder, borderline multiple personality disorder, histrionic, sufferer of auditory hallucinations and panic attacks) but I just don't really fit into any box you'd like to stuff me in. (Oh, the irony that I would join a community where I'm asking people to put me into a pre-defined box...ho ho ho.) I've been labeled as a hippy seeing as I am a peace-loving, tree-hugging, Tori Amos-listening, feminist ditz. However, I have never touched, let alone looked at an illegal drug or substance. I absolutely HATE drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes. I am also a very prudish girl with very strict morals for myself. No sex before marriage, no cheating on your significant other, etc. I am old fashioned in a sense and want to be a housewife, taking care of my family and making my home gorgeous. It also pisses me off when other people who claim to be feminist say that wanting to be a housewife is anti-feminist. Please forgive my french, but...bullshit. Being able to do and be whatever you want in the world while being equal to men is what feminism is about. Anywho, back on topic... I do have several very strange outlooks on life, as well as what one might call an eccentric personality, but it all seems perfectly normal to me. I love running around town in EGL costumes (Elegant Goth Lolita) with butterfly faerie wings on and glitter in my long chocolate colored hair. Mind you, I live in the middle of "Hick-America" and this gets me some overly aggressive looks from the locals from time to time. No matter, I love dressing like a fantasy character. Some people call that crazy, I just think I enjoy my life. So, for all purposes, I guess it is easiest to sum me up as "crazy". After all, that's what you all think, now isn't it? Hee hee.
13. What makes a person deserving of your respect? Any person who has the ability to persevere through horrible ideals and remain intact as a good person with an honest heart has my respect. Any person who can stare down death and say, "It's not that scary" has my respect. Anyone who can pull themselves out of hell and come out a better person, anyone with a mind that is so wonderful that everyone tells them so, yet stays humble... They all have my respect. Having the courage to live truly and honestly, honoring yourself and your heart 'til the very end is a most admirable thing. Not many people stay true to themselves and succumb to pressures society place on them to fit into this mold or that mold. If you can see yourself for who you really are and be that person inside and out, you are my hero.
14. What character from the series do you most relate to? Explain. As I briefly alluded to earlier in this application that is slowly resembling a TERM PAPER, I can identify most with Luna Lovegood. She is typically misunderstood, a bit kooky, and really brilliant. She is resolved where and when it counts and she lets offenses toward her person go when she knows that to hold a grudge or become vengeful would just be useless. It's a waste of energy and does nothing but draw negativity upon herself. She has the unrelenting belief of an innocent child and the serenity of a wise sage. Crazy is a term used by people who often cannot understand another person, therefore I believe we could both be a similar caliber of crazy. Generally happy and optimistic, we do resemble each other. (Oh, and we share a similar tendency to space out and make up our own vocabularies. Ex: Loser-lurgy. Come on. Fricken sweet, don't you think, fluffyumpkins?) We also surprise people with our acute sensory perceptions and presence of mind. Because we seem to be spacey doesn't always mean that we don't know precisely what is going on around us when it counts. So, yes, Luna and I share a couple of identifying traits.
15. What qualities do you possess from each of the four houses (Please try choosing one from each)?
Slytherin - I can be very unrelenting when I want something and use many different methods to achieve my desired ends. I'm not necessarily like that all the time as I will compromise when it is everyone's best interest, but as I have stated time and time again; if you mess with my loved ones I'm not afraid to play dirty. I will also do whatever it takes to survive.
Ravenclaw - Although sometimes cyclical, my ability to reason isn't bad at all. I will often try to reason my way through something before taking action. I also love to expand my intellectual horizons at every chance, especially regarding spiritual, religious, and mythological pursuits. Philosophy isn't bad either... Oh, and I love puzzles as well as chess.
Hufflepuff - If not already clear, I am extremely dedicated to my friends and loved ones. I am loyal to the hilt and will do whatever it takes to help them when they need me. Unless one of my loved ones does something unforgivable to me, they can always count on me to come through.
Gryffindor - I may not be terribly courageous all the time, but I have had my bouts of valor here and there. If I feel something is wrong and that no one is doing anything about it I will stand up for what is right and defend my beliefs. I won't let someone get picked on (or at least I will make some waves to take the attention onto myself) or bullied.
16. A) If you could change one thing about yourself, would you? Yes.
B) What would it be if you did? My swift temper.
C) Why? I'm a very emotional person in general, so I am a bit of a spit fire at times. In some situations where I would normally do best by thinking it through, if my anger or defensiveness becomes roused by extreme forces I will become a righteous mother bear. The bad part of this, however, is that I am not physically capable of backing my mouth up. (Hence why I really wish I could quell my temper...) So, I do much better when I am able to use craftiness to manipulate things in my favor. Now, I have had a couple of stints of good luck where when I had gotten angry that I had actually been able to do some good, but barring that I can't see my temper being of much use.
17. How did you find us? If it was from a post say where and who posted it (If possible, please leave a link to the actual post you saw.)I learned about it from my best friend, Huffledor Elsa poisonedblood and decided that it was something for me.
18. Have you applied before? If so, can you please leave a link to your last application? No, I have not applied here before.
19. A) Why should we accept you? Why? Well, isn't it obvious? I'm fabulous, dahling. ^_~
B)What makes you different than the other applicants we’re reviewing after you? Sweetheart, everyone is a unique snowflake made of the same decaying carbon matter as the next. Everyone is special, so perhaps you might look for our similarities. However, if you must know, I'll just say that if my eccentricity, love of the whimsically spiritual, and general outlook on life aren't enough then what is? *laughs*
20. How many hours weekly do you expect to be able to put into this community? At least a couple of hours a week. I want to be honest and let you know that I don't always have internet access and that I do work crazy hours for an evil establishment, but I will always do my best to check regularly.
21. Please leave some way of communication (either e-mail or AIM) here. My AIM username is falineowlight.
22. If you are sorted into a House that does not have an Head of House, would you be interested in being one? If you were to feel that I was worthy, then I would be more than happy to take up the position.